Thanks for your support guys. I actually just checked in with my doc and did blood work to make sure I don't have a Heath issue. All tests came back okay.

I should say I was below weight about 10 years ago and was diagnosed with an eating disorder. I had been pretty sick with an ulcerative color flare and couldn't eat a lot of stuff without it making me sick. I got over the restriction and stuff over the years and haven't really dealt with those urges in about 5-6 years. I still deal with self loathing but idk.

I just moved a few months back and haven't established a psych doc yet. Maybe it's time?? I can't guarantee I have a ton of time for it though, as I'm back in school for my degree full time and working full time.