Hello creatingself: I'm sorry you're having this difficulty. Yes, many years ago when I was in school I had a similar problem. I never seemed to fit in anywhere &, not only did no one much seem to care if I was around, I think that in allot of cases they would have preferred it if I had not been! I don't know why or how this happens. One thing I do know about myself is that I never was, & still am not, a "joiner". I don't get involved in anything. In fact, my tendency is always to avoid people as much as possible. Perhaps if I had gotten involved with activities in school, it would have gone better. So, I wonder if this might be helpful for you. Do you belong to any clubs at school? Are you involved in sports? If you can find some things such as this that you enjoy, then perhaps the fact that you seem to not be included so often will not feel so bad & you will actually begin to be more recognized.

I've been reading a book recently titled: The Practice of Lojong: Cultivating Compassion Through Training the Mind by Traleg Kyabgon. (Lojong is a Tibetan Buddhist practice.) Anyway, in the book, Kyabgon writes that we cannot control what other people say or do. However we can have complete control over how we respond to it. You may or may not be able to change the way your classmates treat you. But you can have complete control over how you respond by focusing on what you want to be doing & where you are going in your life. Even if there is nothing you can do to change how your classmates treat you, once you graduate, you will meet new people & have the opportunity to choose the people you hang out with. And it is these friends who will value & support you in your life.

My best wishes to you!