I'm really scared of talking about that sort of thing. I'm afraid she will react poorly and suddenly cut me off (personally). Honestly I think and feel that people will always reject that part of me, the part that seeks affection and is vulnerable. I feel like that part is "wrong" or improper, or even perverted, and unacceptable. It's also hard to express affection. Even when I know it's ok to express affection, or even the right thing to do, I'm scared.