I feel like I'm slipping back in to serious self harm, or well on my way. Lately with things between my husband and I, I've been back to cutting every few days to every day. I don't care what my husband my think. I want to make myself uglier than I am now.

I'm the one who is going to end up back on the hospital for not being able to be safe because I refuse to leave this situation right now. So messed up on so many levels.