I don't really know how to explain things.

I was diagnosed with depression with psychotic features, I don't know if that's what it is/was but it has been really scary.

I'm doing a lot better now than I have been. I'm still low, but less so. All the other stuff is less of an issue, too. I'm coping. I couldn't before, but now I can kind of imagine being able to get on with my life. I can't imagine ever feeling like I did before, though. I can't imagine ever feeling 'normal' again.

I don't know how to explain, but things feel strange all the time. Existing - anything existing - feels strange and wrong. I still feel scared most of the time. Less scared, but still scared. Life feels like it is divided into Before and After this 'episode' and nothing will ever really be the same or okay again. But then maybe I'm wrong. I couldn't imagine getting this far, and I have. I don't know.

Can anyone relate? Is it possible to get back to 'normal'?