It's not like I can't feel happiness. I can. I just can't maintain it? I slip straight back down the slippery slope to thinking why do I even bother. I don't know if this is depression or a part of bipolar mood instability or if there's something else going on. I just want to be happy go lucky again. I can't seem to tolerate any amount of stress or pressure or I crumble. It makes me want to spend my days in bed. Sorry for being so bleak recently.