(((ONEWISH))). Hello and welcome to Psych Central. Have you thought about getting therapy for your pnic attacks and anxiety. A therapist can help to relieve a lot of your anxiety by retraining your way of reacting to a situation. Medication is also available until you are able to get stable in therapy. I feel that you are just in need of professional help at this tima and when you see the difference in yourself in time a lot of the other minor issues that you feel are major issues at this time will seem less hurtful and debilitating to you mentally. Self esteem is a very fragile thing and getting the right help canhelp you succeed in life on a more positive note. there is also a chat here at Psych Central as well so you can make new aquaintences and share your life with. The hotlinenumber is 1-800-273 TALK if you ever just need someone to talk to bout how you are feeling when you are having a hard time alone. Take care (((ALONE))). I hope things get better for you soon. Soidhonia