Wow. That is a lot to go through. So much loss and trauma. Are you able to see a therapist. It might help you process all this and maybe get well enough to work again. I lost my career due to mental illness and it devastated me. Only now, 7 years later am I beginning to rebuild my life. It is really tough but you can do it. I am glad you have the support of your husband. Keep posting here if it helps. We are here for you.