Hello amature: Welcome to PsychCentral! PC is a great place to gain support as well as to obtain mental health related information. There are many knowledgeable & caring members here. The more you post, & reply to other members' posts, the more you'll gain from the time you spend here.

I am not really able to comment with regard to what you are experiencing, although I will say that I tend to have some of the same sorts of thoughts that run through my head. To some extent, I think it may be mostly anxiety-related.

It's great that you will be seeing a therapist. Definitely raise your concerns with this person. This is what one sees a therapist for. If you are not forthcoming with your therapist s/he cannot help you. As far as how to do it goes, I would presume that the therapist will ask you why you have come in. So, in response just say pretty-much what you wrote here, along with expressing the other concern you mentioned. My best wishes to you!