Hi
I have been doing a lot of self reflection lately and trying to see if ADHD may be an issue. Or other. Age 46. Male.

Always felt out of the ordinary. I felt that people accepted me, but didn't want to include me. In my younger years I was very shy. Became more social in high school, but only with a small group of friends. Never have liked anything that involved the word 'team'. Very independent.

I have always been a calm person. But my mind would always race. Lose interest in things that required my attention unless it interested me. Hated classes unless I had an interest in the subject.

Grew up in a supportive family. Raised by my step father and mother. Would visit with biological father, but was really uncomfortable. He is very religious. Have since pulled away from much contact as I got older.

Have depression issues.

Have experienced spiritual awakenings and shifts later in life. But not a religious person. This actually has helped me quite a bit. Helps quiet the mind.

Have alway had trouble falling asleep and staying asleep. Takes at least about hour. Sometimes shorter. Sometimes longer. Sometimes hours. Wake up a lot. Always been an early riser.

Married with a son (20) and daughter (18). Feel that I have not been the best father, though they are good, smart and grounded people.

Work successfully in a creative field.

I just always feel strange. Like there is something wrong with me or the world. I am sure A LOT of people feel like me. But I just feel the need to seek.

Thanks