Funnily enough, I just spoke to my son and told him I was 'fine', despite having a CT Scan booked for next week to investigate spiralling liver results in Blood Tests. I have beaten 2 rare Cancers, my GP has speculated on the possibility of a third. Only my Ex knows about the scan as she is driving me, neither she, nor my sister, know the possible reason until a firm dx is made. Therefore, the stress and worry is all mine.

As for my mental state, my daughters know I am 'unhappy' but I keep everything buried and make out it is all down to physical pain on the occasions when I am asked about it. Even my Anxiety and the rising feelings of Panic I get from eating have to be choked back - literally - every evening when my daughter and I have dinner.

This behaviour stems from childhood where it was drilled into me that you don't share, love and emotions are weaknesses, suppression and isolation is strength.

Dave.