Fuzzy...
just wanted to say im sorry you're hurting so much you often cant use words to express what you have inside, but when you do its "nice" to see what is going on with you. dont take it badly, im sorry you're hurting, but your words are really expressive and i think its good for you to use them a little more (i often see you only use emoticons or delete your own posts). i hope that writing/talking helps you. takecare.