Gosh I'm now 65 and not sure anything is worth it anymore. It use to be all my mental heath concerns could be attributed to PTSD now the doc says I'm probably bi-polar to boot. (that's why all the adverse effects from the SSRIs) Physically all I had to worry about was the pain and sciatica from my spinal injury. Well that too has changed and now I'm incontinent and have foot drop. To top it off last year my heart went caput and I underwent a mitral valve replacement (I now oink) and double valve replacement. Then again my short-term memory is saying goodbye. I can't even get through making my morning coffee without forgetting what I'm doing. Use to say my intelligence was my best asset. Guess I don't have much in the way of assets now.

The doc's all ask me about a support system. Sorry it seems everyone is now gone. (dead, pushed away, or moved.)

I recently moved to a 55+ community in hopes of making some new friends and participating in some of the activities offered. Worked great for a few months then my spine decided I shouldn't be walking and oops 3 falls in a month.

The psych doc says I should be happy for what I do have and learn to live with it. Not sure I really want to.