Hi Soidhonia, Yes, I've been on the phone, email, and in the office of my psych. He's been really good - but I'm learning that the doctors are not God. I've been off and on of several meds - the latest is Lamictal, which did not work at all. It just made me extremely anxious. So, I'm coming off if it.

You've also got a point about the different causes. I did get my thyroid checked and it WAS out of whack. I'm now on meds for that. Getting used to the Synthroid was an experience in itself. But I knew it was the Synthroid. I also have to wonder about "the change" as I am growing older.

Sometimes I don't feel like any doctor or med can help. I just have to tough it out. I'm pretty sure I'm not alone. The past couple weeks have been pretty hard. But at least this time I haven't had any thoughts of "checking out." I'm just struggling mentally and emotionally, and I guess physically too! The only thing I'm having a problem with, that I think would help, is crying. I just don't cry. I've been told by many that if I would just let go and let myself cry, it would probably help tremendously. Maybe one day....