Speedshoes, you are going to have to get a journal, and type one example of what your talking about? Are you repeating your internal dialogue? I have evidence to the contrary that you might not be schizophrenia, something I've gone through....Are you apart of therapy that is outside the confines of the therapist office creating like a double whammy effect? Aww okay, ain't nothing you can do about that beside cope with what is. I've gotten lawyer involved in my case and no one wants to tackle the core issue. I believe everything you said speeshoes, hang in there and be strong.