Do you remember where it started? Where you in a therapy group or individual session that got rid of you? Is that someone your around certain ones seem to know without you knowing them? Do they bring forth your life alters included that it seems like your always retraumatized or rapid cycling? They don't know they are doing it though...If you can hang on to that you should be fine its mostly a way for you to notice your system...Don't try to explain it though it makes it worst.

It's okay your not alone....There trying to get further proof that you have DID and not schrizophrenia...For me, there was no one that could save me or explain I had to figure it out on my own...It was very dangerous and nearly costed me my family literally, so be careful....Journal everything so that they leave you alone......It like someone is blow up words in a person that your near that you all didn't speak, provoking you to share and tell your story to strangers, right? They say keys words that remind you of your life the things you do on social media etc.... I've learned how to deal with it so should you....Therapist or hush hush about it... Yes, its so unexplainable that the only logical explanantion is magical....Anyway, no one is going to believe you except me.... If you want to PM with specific examples I can let you know what I done to cope with it.

1. you feel that your a victim of cyber stalking
2. a stalker
3. mental illness (well we know that already, me also because I can relate)
4.A cult
5. Magical explaination
6. Secret society
7. Blacking out issues...
9. Your normal a way to deflect the true issue

Like I said all of these probably are issues that you can't put your finger on, so they put it off as your mental ill first before even giving you credit that something is going on...

What I've found that helps is lawyers, later on when it came to disability and employment discrimination issues. I think you said in the post that your disabled already.