Next week is going to be the last time I meet up with my friends before we go off to university. We've known each other for 10 years, and every Friday (pretty much) we've either gone swimming or gone to the cinema together. But after next week it can't happen any more, because we're getting split up. This change is on top of all the other ones that are happening at the moment - leaving school, leaving home and everything that comes with that - but it's the one that's been affecting me most. I know they can't, but I wish things would just stay the same!



I guess I should have expected it, though. Mum basically told me that my friends are going to leave once we go to university, because it's just what happens - you meet new people, and forget the old ones. I don't want to forget them, but I won't be surprised if they forget me. People always leave - every single friend I had at school left. People don't want to be around me once they discover what I'm really like. I'm boring, I'm clingy...they're better off without me. Maybe my current friends haven't discovered this yet, but they will. I don't deserve them. But I don't want to lose them!