I look at her public instagram. Looking at her instagram reminds me that I'm just a client, yet gives me a glimpse into her non therapist life.

I swing between feeling connected like I carry her around with me, and craving that sense of connection too.

Those times are definitely hard.I try to remember things she has said, and sometimes I listen to some of my secret recordings of our sessions so I can hear again some of the healing things she has said.