Would it help for you to talk about what's going on in your personal life? It sounds like the pressure builds and you cut to release the pressure. Does it help to interfere with this process and do something else, like post? Do you feel comfortable talking more extensively here? Is this a safe place for you? Hugs to you. I don't self-harm (at least not by cutting) but I want to understand. I guess all of us here are interested in managing those things that cause us to feel pressure, anxiety, depression etc. Do you check in with others here who understand --- through PM? Thank you for sharing here, and know that many are concerned and care.