i am in deep trouble. Before the next few days are through i might very well end up in the hospital. The major issue in my life has begun to boil over vigorously instead of simmering as it has been doing. i am terrified and it's beyond what i can control. For reasons of fear and privacy i can't post what is actually happening.

i am so alone in all of this. T has no weekend access. i can barely make it through the day and crying late into the night.

i don't know how to handle this and i can't just do nothing.. it is being pushed upon me now and i don't know what to do. i am so afraid.