Long story, try to make it short and to the point, even thought there is a alot of crap inbetween.
I have two daughters, one is 28, I gave her up for adoption at birth (not my choice), was reunited with her 9 years ago. We communicate by phone alot, I have seen 4 times. She got married 3 years ago and is now pregnant with her first child and is due in December.
My other daughter is 26, lives with me and has drug issues, she smokes crank, crystal meth or whatever you want to call it, she is also a pot head. She sleeps for 2-3 days straight and then is up for days. She does not work, or do much of anything. I have offered her help but until she is willing to admit she has a problem my hands are tied. Keep in mind that she denies the drug use to me.
I bought two plane tickets so that me and my daughter could fly to see my other daughter for next weekend. I haven't discussed the drug issues in a long time, so my daughter was under the assumption that her sister stopped using. Now these two have not spoke in 3 years, no real reason that I know of, just don't communicate with each other.
To shorten it up a bit... they did talk, she admits to her sister about the drug use, now my daughter is uncomfortable about us coming, worried that she will bring drugs into her house, was excited about getting to see her, but is now worried, etc.
I told my daughter not to even think about trying to take anything with her. I was honest with her and told her what her sister had said, about how she was excited to see her, but now... how she don't want any drugs in her house, that she wishes she would stop using.
I wish so very much that my daughter would stop using. I wish my two daughters loved each other like sisters should, but instead they hardly know each other, now I am afraid it going to be uncomfortable while we stay there. I want so much for them to get along. I don't blame my daughter for being upset about her sister telling her about her drug use, but at the same time, I have lived with her this way for so long, it somehow is normal, if that makes any sense. I can't fix her, so I don't even try anymore.
My thing with this is, my daughter knows how I feel about the drugs, I bring it up DAILY... I figure what ever is between these two they will have to work it out on their own. I don't blame my adopted daughter for being upset at her sister, I am upset with her too. I just wanted to go visit and have a good time, her pregnancy is a very big deal for me, and I want her to be happy and not caught up in all this bullsh*!t that I have to deal with since it don't really involve her.
Any comment or suggestions are welcomed.
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