God hasn't given up on you, and you 've not given up on yourself. If you still feel some rapport with your shrink go see him again. If not find another one and tell them what you 've tried so far, or have him call the previous one to give him your history. ECT as practised nowadays is very safe and effective, why not consider it? Keep us posted. And I am sorry to disagree with the previous poster but don't go down the alternative therapies road, you won't get better, you 'll spend your money for nothing, and you 'll only be more and more frustrated. MDD is a real illness, if you had cancer you 'd do (or I hope you would) your chemo, you wouldn't go to an acupuncturist or a cosmic field healer or a whatever the hell I pull out of my *** name healer and the like.

For me too getting out of bed to take a bath is a challenge, as many a thing are one, btw. ECT has not been suggested though, I did, but the shrink said no, we are not there.

YOU CAN AND YOU WILL PULL THROUGH.