Yesterday I got a call from my brother' widow saying she does not like secrets. So she wanted to tell me she will be traveling yo where My family lives the holidays. Why is it a secret? Because I am not invited. My mother does not want me there. Why? Mother got angry the last time I arranged for us all to be together. She wanted my brothers widow all to herself. The brothers widow calmed her by telling her she would travel there another time without me being there. I did not expect it would be during Christmas. Hone the family gets together for the holidays. So yes, I will be alone for the holidays. While the family will be spending the week together. I will not be welcomed there. I am so depressed by this that I question how I am going to get through this holiday season