The job I was supposed to get called me back the day after my last post. Turns out it took so long because it took them a couple days to get ahold of my references and then the hiring manager had a day off. So basically, I was worried for no reason. On the downside, I don't have my fist real day until the 27th, so lack of money is still a real issue. Not to mention that the psychiatrist I've started seeing since my last one disappeared is out of network with my insurance, so each appointment costs me $200. I've only had one appointment with her, and I liked her a lot, but I just can't afford it... I think I'm just going to have to deal with not having a psychiatrist for the next few months until I move. Just going to try to have my primary care doc fill my meds since I don't have another option. I've literally gone through every psychiatrist in town that's covered by my insurance, and I'd have to drive 60 miles away to find another one. I'm just glad I have my therapist, otherwise I might not be in great shape right now.

Surprisingly enough, I'm not really worried about anything. I've been stable for about 4 months now, and it doesn't seem to be going away any time soon, which is a comforting thought. I was finally re-diagnosed when I saw the most recent psychiatrist, so I'm officially Bipolar 2 with Borderline traits. I kind of feel better knowing, I like having answers. Makes a lot more sense now, anyway.

I hope those of you who are struggling right now find some kind of peace at least for a little while. I know how hard it is to stay positive through the holidays sometimes.