DechanDawa I'm not ready for war, I have enough wars going on in my head on a daily basis. No matter what way I look at it im hurting myself. Continue to smoke & it affect my meds & not improve mentally or quit & cause a resulting imbalance that will probably disrupt my mood also. It's a hard decision. It does relax me but also makes me anxious, I don't know how to explain this effect. I feel like I drink in replacement of smoking if I cant & I don't think alcohol is any better but it's effect on gaba is blissful but too short lived. This is why I feel like I need to address my anxiety fairly aggressively & I might have a chance.