Well, you are already at war as far as cannabis is concerned. You want its immediate effect but it is ramping up the anxiety which is causing you more anxiety. You are in the middle of two sides playing against one another, and that kind of conflict, of itself, creates inner tension. I have been completely focused on how to reduce anxiety for the past 6 months. Perhaps you should immediately reduce the amount of any non-prescription substance you are using. I know I shouldn't drink coffee because it ramps up anxiety, but I'm not willing to give it up, so I have drastically reduced the amount I drink. It's working and I am gradually breaking the dependence. I am sorry to make your situation sound so dramatic, but addictions don't just fade away by wishful thinking. It sounds like you need to discuss this with a pro. I also think group support is key, and some folks on this thread have provided you with helpful links. Good Luck.