I want to thank you all for reading my post and for responding so kindly. Its good to know I'm not alone in this. I don't feel I can talk to anyone because I fear it will reflect badly on me. I know this is not the case, but I suspect thats some people would this is a result of my flaws. Last night he came home and asked me whats wrong. I didn't want to talk about it until seeing a therapist, so I told him of my intention to do so. He then said "you're not going to leave me, are you?" to which I responded "I don't know". I think this hit him like a ton of bricks.
Now I'll cut to the chase, he fessed up and asked me if I had heard about sexual addiction, and told me he has a problem. He apparantly doesn't want out of the marriage and desperately wants help (so he says). its not that I don't believe him, but life is long, and I fear relapse.Anyway, I guess we're off to a start. I did tell him that I saw going to go to a doctor to get checked out and he assured me that thats not necessary-no intercourse. His problem is with porn (internet) and the massage parlours. He told me he calls the prostitutes but has never seen one. I'm not happy, but I am relieved to some degree, that he told me about it. He is glad its out in the open. I guess I should be mad, but I actually feel badly for him. Maybe I'm a sucker, but I guess I do love him and our life. Still haven't decided if I'm able to live with this or not, hopefully therapy will help me. Feels like a really bad dream, yes breathing is difficult. On the upside, I have lost weight. Talk soon, thanks again.