I get irritated & angry at having to clean my rabbits cage. I hate her, sometimes. Most of the time.
It sounds ridiculous.
I would get rid of her but I bought her for my daughter, impulsive BS.
I wish she would just die already.
That's horrible isn't it?
I can't control my hatred for this useless animal. She's all work & won't let us hold her. She's old now.
I can be fine & while I'm cleaning her cage, I get enraged.
That sounds so immature.
I love animals. I don't get it. Maybe, it's repressed resentment at myself for being foolish & getting her in the first place. A reminder of how my bad impulsive choices haunt me.
Ugh. Sorry. That's just one example of my anger issues.
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