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Originally Posted by Wanderlust90
It's not like I can't feel happiness. I can. I just can't maintain it? I slip straight back down the slippery slope to thinking why do I even bother. I don't know if this is depression or a part of bipolar mood instability or if there's something else going on. I just want to be happy go lucky again. I can't seem to tolerate any amount of stress or pressure or I crumble. It makes me want to spend my days in bed. Sorry for being so bleak recently.
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No need to apologize for how you are feeling! I had a recent rather long period of stability but it failed in comparison to the near 8 year stability I had in my early to mid 20's. And when my mood changes for the better or worse, it is so dramatic. My illness is out of control and it seems meds cannot contain it. I hate it so much.
Anyway, I just want you to know that on many levels, I can relate and I wish you the best. I wish I could give you some joy!
