Hi hon.

You're definitely not alone. I feel for you, I really do.

Alot of your story reminds me of my brother's story. He was age 15 when he was diagnosed as schizophrenic. You definitely need to be checked out by a qualified professional.

My cousin is bipolar and has alot of the symptoms you describe, it'll take someone who knows what they're talking about to be able to treat you.

What anxiety meds are you taking? My brother's pdoc told us that Xanax is the worst thing for a schizophrenic. That was his opinion though, but if it's not doing any good, it's time for a change.

Please do what you need to do to make yourself safe.

Take Care,
Kimberly.