Did my tests today, what I experience assures me that I need those meds despite my fears and doubts.
You're all very reassuring and calming, thank you friends.

Off-topic; I wish I had some pill to help me relax and sleep for 8 hours for once.
Do you ever feel exhausted but freaking-hyper at the same time? This endless buzzing energy vibrating through me, doesn't let me to rest fully - so annoying.