Thanks everyone...Alot. I've lately been calling Crises lines, I met a pperson who really helped me and told me to call back, I can't get in touch with her tho, everytime I call its a different line. But I keep calling and talking to the others too. I've been seeing docs for a long time to answer your question Okiedokie, its been a rough 17 years,...and I'm only 17, I don't know how long I can go knowing that all my life was misery.....where is my light.....where is my tunnel? I love you PC thank you so much.