This isn't directly about abuse, but as a physical, emotional and sexual abuse survivor, this is going to be a big deal for me. I have spent my entire life being very passive and anxious, inviting abuse and disrespect, and harboring a ton of internalized rage that turns into depression and anxiety.

My manager at work has been putting me in a very unfair position. She lets anyone access my register/cash drawer throughout my shifts, including other managers, and then blames me solely for any cash shortage at the end of the shift. Today I walked in and found an angry note she left for me telling me that she is going to start writing up my shortages and three shortages means I will be fired. This very same shift, another manager used my register I.D. code and ran a register herself and with another cashier while I was barely on it as I was mostly preparing food, then she would not even let me close down my own register to see how much money was in it and how much was short.

My gut reaction was anxiety and anger, which I immediately started to internalize and just felt like crying. At first my plan was to just not make waves, try to make as much money as I can before inevitably being thrown under the bus and fired.

But I'm not going to let that happen. I emailed corporate and told them what has been going on, that I am not comfortable with it and the obvious reasons as to why. So there is documentation of my perspective on the matter.

Tomorrow when I go into work, as terrifying as it's probably going to be, I am going to tell my manager that I will not cashier for them anymore unless I am the only person who is allowed to touch my register. If she wants me to sign a write up paper for yesterday's likely shortage, I will refuse to do so, as two other people were mainly using the register under my I.D. code.

I might get fired, it will probably be painfully terrifying, I will probably feel very embarrassed even trying to talk. But I am not going to let them treat me this way. I am going to politely confront the issue, and then let it go, whatever it happens. I am not going to carry around anxiety and anger and depression because of these people.

Wish me luck ya'll.