Had an awkward and uncomfortable moment earlier. My wife brought in some clothes that she'd washed and folded neatly into a couple of rucksacks... Unbeknownst to her (or I for that matter) I must have absent mindedly placed an item in one of the pockets (she is reluctant for obvious reasons to go rummaging in pockets or places I might have put things down without thought due to absent mindedness).

I sat in my room (still in hospital and not self harmed in a week) just staring at it... Only thing that stopped me using it at all was the thought I might go to far again and what that might make my wife feel in the wake of (I always try to ensure that responsibility lies on me)... So I did in the end go and speak to a nurse (one I've known on all three of my stays and as such knows me well) and after some discussion we went back to my room and I handed it over (wrapped in tissue so she wouldn't hurt herself).

About an hour later I was kicking myself and was rummaging through everything to see if another would show up (which it didn't). Glad now that I type this in the early hours of the morning... Not told my wife as I don't see the point nor do I want her to worry.