No problem for the rant. I appreciate your concern and kindness. I know what you are saying and realize I see things in my pdoc that many of you don't. The only other available pdoc right now (thanks to medicaid) is so busy, he is backed up for months. I could get in, I'm sure, but would once again have to wait months. Plus, he only sees patients ever 6 weeks or more and hardly "fits" in patients. I am used to every 2 to 4 weeks and feel as though, with my illness, I need that frequency. I do see my pdoc on Tues, btw so we shall see.

There is one other option. That is a christian pdoc in my christian t's office that she keeps recommending to me. However, she takes no insurance. I have to find out if she will work on a sliding scale and if she does, I have to find out what that is because we truly cannot afford much. I am embarrassed to leave a message and have the office know I am the one asking and every time I call I get the office VM. I am going to try again tomorrow though. That would be such a blessing.