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I've lately been calling Crises lines, I met a pperson who really helped me and told me to call back, I can't get in touch with her tho, everytime I call its a different line. But I keep calling and talking to the others too. I've been seeing docs for a long time to answer your question Okiedokie, its been a rough 17 years,...and I'm only 17, I don't know how long I can go knowing that all my life was misery.....where is my light.....where is my tunnel? I love you PC thank you so much.
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When a crisis line person invites you to call back it doesn't mean to only talk with them. I'm sorry you only want to find that one person, and keep getting others, though.
There are people IRL to talk with also. Are you still in school? Your counselor can line you up with someone, if the counselor isn't helping you work through your issues.
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its been a rough 17 years,...and I'm only 17,
</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> I suspect from reading this statement that you might improve if you can apply some of the counters to cognitive distortions. (You can find them sticky posted at the top of the psychotherapy forum.) Certainly you don't recall issues from birth that depressed you? I'm sure you feel this way, though, but it's important to counter negative thoughts and speech. Studies have shown that very young children don't stay "depressed" at all because of their internal "hope."
If you can pinpoint a better year or time when you first became sad, that might help you figure out why you are dealing with such exasperation, and that will give you something to work on to try and find hope for the future.
If you can't find anyone IRL and you can't connect back up with that crisis center worker, then I would suggest you hospitalize yourself until they can find some meds or therapy that will help you feel better.
You don't need to feel this way.