hello,

I know some of my posts have said I don't want to stop and part of me does think that way but most of me knows this is not a long term coping solution and I have help with showers now and I am not proud of the fact that I cut and I don't like the fact that others will see my cuts and I am having major surgery in January and I need to be in my best physical health as possible so everything will go right this time and so there will be less of a chance there will be complications like last time and I have stopped for 8 years before so I know I can do it it is just the first couple months that are the hardest I just hope I can be strong when the urges come

- random_emotion