<font color="#000088">Sometimes when people that SI a lot, feel the need to harm themselves for some reason. They may purposely trigger themselves in order to get the numbing effect, so the self-harming won't be as painful. So yeah, there are quite a few people that do that! It's just not easy to get some of them to admit that they actually triggered themselves on purpose! But it is common. So you are not alone in that area, or a freak or anything. It happens a lot with self-injurers! I hope that helps you understand it better! And not feel as bad about it! </font>