Well, I am just starting therapy and one of my quandaries is that what I always thought I loved doing, refinishing furniture, sewing, and crafts, I always did to try to make my abusers love me because that is what they do. So right at the moment, I really want to throw my sewing machine away and never touch another piece of fabric! I always thought I wanted to own my own antique store or boutique where I made everything in it. But now I am not so sure. Of course it doesn't help that when I mention things like that my dad says something to the affect of "yeah, sure, if you want to go bankrupt".

I am sure that it is best for me not to make any large changes in my life right now. But I really want to start thinking about what else I could be doing!