Well it was pretty uneventful for how worked up and melodramatic my brain was being about it last night. I only got a few hours of sleep and couldn't stop obsessing over what I would do/say today when I arrived at work. Kept cycling through anxiety, doubt, anger, guilt, etc.

But then I was so all-around exhausted when I left for work at 4 this morning, that I just felt nauseated and numb. I showed up for work not feeling any anxiety or anger at all. Felt very passive and numb and tired. I really didn't want to be there anymore, just felt very "over" the job in general, but I knew I needed to force myself through the motions, wouldn't be right to just stop showing up and screw over my coworkers when we are already understaffed as it is.

Well everything went pretty much crazy this shift. I guess some people quit recently, so 2 brand new employees showed up this morning needing to be trained. Another person quit this morning after I arrived, announced he was quitting and left. So it was me and 2 total newbies holding down the fort, so I felt guilty about possibly winding up walking out on them, too. And it was a really crazy, bad shift. Full-moon type customers. The hot food cooker had a bunch of food in it, but malfunctioned and everything started smoking out and caught on fire. One of the fountain drink machines was like, possessed, and the soda wouldn't stop coming out, created a small flood. I also burned my hand while cooking, stung for hours. Was just one of those days.

Didn't really feel like the right time to have a confrontation where I politely threaten to quit if I don't get my way. Especially because my manager wound up ignoring the register issues and not writing me up after all. She was actually rather friendly to me today. I just couldn't muster up any of the anger I felt yesterday, it just wasn't there.

So I guess this was a flop. Will stick to updating this thread if I try again later this week.