Thanks guys for your suggestions. I mean this thing has to be over. It's going to be hard enough trying to bounce back from almost a 40 yr. marriage and what seems to me as a life wasted.
But it really wasn't wasted. I did a lot of good I have two grown daughters who loved me and I loved them but my wife brainwashed them into making me a monster. I mean if you had an argument with your husband/wife would you then call your son/daughter and tell them what happened and make up lies ? What business is it of theirs ?

What hurts the most is they won't give me any credit for the good I did. Supported them in all ways.
I'm sorry for the ramble. Thank God for PC.