Hello Elizabeth Swan: I am sorry to read that you are struggling. I see that you live in Pakistan. I don't know anything about what options are available to you. From what you wrote, it sounds like getting into a regular physical exercise routine would be of benefit, both with regard to your weight as well as with regard to your depression. Some individual therapy might also be helpful in order to deal with your depression. This might also help you to maximize your motivation. Group therapy can also be helpful in this regard. I know that losing weight can be a challenge, especially when your work is sedentary. I hope that you will be able to find the motivation you need to accomplish your goal. Good luck!