I'm currently in PHP and the one nurse practitioner decided to lower my trileptal to 1500. I was very hesitant and told her I know its a high dose, but anytime I try and go down on this med good things do not happen. But she convinced me because I was adding lamictal into the cocktail it should be ok. NOPE!! **** is going crazy and I had such bad anxiety during the afternoon group session, I had to leave the room until art therapy. Then I lost it again this afternoon and was soooo tempted to drink. I somehow made myself not to do so and ate a bunch of junk food instead (Five Guys). But then I came home to a beautiful get well soon card from my boss's boss. That made me feel better, it was so sweet and unexpected. I just hope I can sleep tonight..