I haven't really been sleeping properly since I got out of hospital in August. It's causing some issues with my dad as he seems to think I'm doing it on purpose and as a result will end up back in hospital by January (his words). I honestly hate not sleeping. I wish I could just hit the pillow and switch off but it doesn't happen. I'm feeling tired all the time but my mind always seems to be on overdrive making it impossible to sleep.

A few weeks ago I went to my GP who very reluctantly gave me some sleeping tablets. I've been going back each week for more but they are now giving me a lower dose so I don't become dependant on them. If I take them (at the higher dose) I sleep amazingly well. Without them I hardly sleep at all.

I've tried going to bed at the same time, getting up at the same time, no naps during the day, I've dramatically reduced the amount of screentime at bedtime, I get out of bed every so often for a bit before trying to sleep again. No matter what I do as soon as I lie down and try to sleep I'm suddenly wide awake.

I just don't know what else I can do. I don't think I can handle this lack of sleep much longer.