I know that feeling unmotivated and stuff is part of depression. But I feel like something is seriously wrong with me. I've noticed other people with depression are still able to enjoy things they love or used to love. But with me I feel like I only enjoy things for a second, and then I don't feel any joy. Constantly trying to find something because I'm so "bored". I'm not trying to say I'm a special snowflake or whatever but I just don't understand why I feel like this, almost all the time.

My therapist pointed out that I have tried many medications and have seen no results. That I am running out of medication to try, since I have tried almost all of them. I often feel like I am just existing and will never truly feel joy or just happiness again. But what frightens me the most is the fact that I have tried almost all depression medication and none have worked. What if I reach the point where my last resort is to try Electroconvulsive therapy [ECT] and it doesn't work?

Then what will I do? Just be stuck in this never ending cycle of depression for the rest of my life? I am seriously at a loss. Any advice? or comments?