I know exactly how you feel! Seriously though, I'm 22 and still live at home. I hate myself and what I see in the mirror. I have few friends and no social life. Meanwhile my sister is off living with her boyfriend and my brother is living his own life in Colorado. It's tough to feel so dependent on family when other people are actually moving forward.

But this is our path I suppose.i had to move home because bipolar reared its big ugly head at my first year in college, causing the university to force me into a leave of absence. Then I got caught up in self medicating, self harm got worse, and I ended up hospitalized twice. The most embarrassing thing after that was the removal of all sharp objects from my room, and my parents acting like my personal pharmacy handing out my meds morning and night. It's rough, but this is the only way I was able to stay alive, do my work, and graduate. While that's the better large picture, I am now at the point where my isolation has really become apparent. That was actually one of the reasons I joined here..to make friends of some sort haha!

Essentially I know how you feel, so if you want to talk feel free to pm me. Stay safe