Well... WOW.. that is a lot of crap for one single person...
Seriously, this is the kind of post that scares me off to give up responding. I mean, how can I be of any help since you seem to have all the known mental illnesses, and it seems that you need an equipe of psychiatrists.
I wonder if you really believe what you say. I mean, do you realize, even if only rationally, that all the stuff about you being guilty for everything bad in the world and your thoughts being evident to everybody are only delusions?
My experience is limited to depression, but I don't feel like going to address the problem, because it seems like it is the least of your problems. You need VERY qualified medical attention immediately. This is not a professional opinion, but it is heartfelt.