As a masochist myself I try not to dwell on the past & all the questions of why. It can really bog me down bec there's so very many labels out there. Does it really matter where these feelings come from as long as you understand & accept them?
I guess to some it does, I just wouldn't dwell on the issue. Yes you might have masochistic tendencies, but you might also discover other things as well. There's no one "true" answer. If you enjoy masochism you'll haveto find a RACK (risk aware consentual kink) person to play with. Most men do not understand masochism & think it's about abuse. Please don t let yourself be abused! Find someone who understands what you're looking for. Be very picky & very careful.