My recently former t has me diagnosed as dd-NOS right now. It's been a long battle with me because I've been fighting her, I kinda worry about t's pushing agendas on me and I don't want her to create dissociative identity disorder if it is not there. I left when she started talking to me about DID. She did because the rageful one came out.

I do lose way too much time, my last hospitalization in September was the result of a "dissociative fugue" which is what the pdoc called it. I do feel like I am distinct people inside. Mostly a very rageful teenager comes out. Vulgar. Criminal behavior. Normally I'm a very well spoken isolatory bookworm. There's a man with psychosis who handles my severe mental health diagnoses in here too. Very artistic. A little girl but she just stays inside. None of these people have names though.
I do not want to admit to any of this but I feel I *have* to to get better.

My parents did some bad things to me. Only a little bit of it I remember. I don't want to face any of it and I don't want a *t* creating things that didn't happen either and further damaging my mind.