Everyone has suicide thoughts at times . Just don't have plans laid out . It just means you are thinking you are overwhelmed and out of control . But if you had the means right in front of yourself most of us would choose no . I know at times I'm in unbearable pain I think . But what would that do to the people around me . Is it going to be a bigger problem for some of them . Can I really fix anything if I would .
In most cases the depression lifts and your thinking gets clearer . We all make mistakes we don't think we could live with but time and clearer days proves us wrong .
Certainly put it out there , talk it out without pushing the panic button . Don't try to scare your support person but ask yourself first would I really do that now. Be calm and assure them you want to try to stop feeling that bad . Be open to try a reasonable amount of drugs and time to get feeling better . The drugs take 4 to 8 weeks to have some good effects . My last go round took a year to fall in on me even though I thought it was sudden trauma. I have been working on getting better for 10 weeks and it is working .
I chose the older drugs because I can't take the newer ones. No ssri's for
me. I take a very little xanax when the anxiety starts on me so it won't get a hold of me . I accept the wave and I don't react to it I float thru it . It can't hurt me if I don't fear it . I believe in claire weekes on you tube , she gave me these tools .
Of course I'm just another patient , Not a caregiver .
Good luck on your journey . I only take 50mg of amitripline at bedtime .